Yeah, yeah, I know that it's forever between my posts.  I don't care...not like people read this religiously or anything.

School is going good.  My classes are much harder this semester and ALOT more work.  I'm keeping up, though, and getting good grades.  Also, I think just because I spend so much more time there, but I have so many friends this semester.  I feel like I am the most popular girl at school. lol.  Not really, but I didn't really talk to anyone last semester and now it's hard to sit down and do my homework without someone from my classes coming to talk to me.  I don't care, though.  That makes me like school alot more, too.  So, I am just glad it is going good for me.  Hopefully I can get a 4.0 this semester, too, cuz I did last semester.  In bad school news, though, I don't think I'll get as much financial aid as I did last time.  Mostly because my mom's husband actually had a job this year.  So, I can't be that mad, but fuck them.  They don't give me no damned money.  I'm just glad this is the last year that i will have to file fafsa with them.  It's bullshit, though.

Work...what can I say.  I hate that place.  My best friend from work is off for surgery and that just makes it so much worse.  Everyone takes themselves WAY to seriously considering it is data entry and we get paid shit.  So I just grin and bear it until I get through school and get a beter job.  I'll be working full time again for the summer when school is out, so that will probably suck balls.

Tony & I are planning vacation for this summer.  We are going to Puerto Vallarto, Mexico. There are so many places that I want to go, it was so hard to decide.  I can't wait til I am rich and I can afford to take 2 vacations a year.  Summer & winter.  That would be so fucking great.  But, I am REALLY excited to go this year.  I had so much fun in FL and I know this year will be even better.  I'm glad because we actually got to choose where to go this year.  We ruled out most everything in the gulf area cuz of hurricane season and I am a big pussy.  I just dont want to be over near there during that time.  Anyways, we just figured everything out over the weeked, so I am sure you will be hearing TONS more about it as it gets closer.

Everything else is going pretty normal.  Things with my bro are the same...sketchy, I guess.  He is still being lazy and doesn't have a job.  Whatever.  Aleta is having a big spring break party here in a few weekends.  That should be fun.  I know that I will be ready to let loose after all the work Ive been putting in at school, work, and home.    I just hope everything goes smoothly and with NO drama.  Which is almost impossible with Aleta, but I try to stay out of it as much as possible.

Anyways, i am going to try to get some other stuff done and I will post again when I can

Thanks to anyone who is actually READING THIS!!!

ETA : My cat ate one of my cutie girbils   So now I just have one.  It was an accident (on my part) and I know the cat just couldn't help herself, but i was sad for a minute.

Im pretty much just bored out of my mind right now.  Tony is out at the bar with his friends, which I am not really that happy about, but whatever, I don't really care.  He broke my laptop and I had to have Best Buy send it away for me to get it fixed.  It'll proabably cost a milliion dollars, but he said he would pay for it so we'll see.  Bought most of my books for school today.  I hope they all get here in time...I'm sure they will, though.  Last semester I got them way before my estimated arrival date or whatever.  Work has been lame and I have been sending out my resume to other places to try to get a job.  I really hope that something works out because I am really just hating my job right now.    I am freaking BOOOORRRREEEDD man!!!

 

PEACE!

Well, I am back from florida...kinda busy, so I don't have much time to write.

Vacation was super fun.  We did lots of fun things like go para-sailing, swimming in the ocean, shopping for gifts...our hotel was right on the beach, so that was really beautiful.  And with a balcony overlooking the ocean and beach.  I have lots of pics, but I'll have to put them up some other day.  No time tonight cuz I have to start work at 7 in the morning tomorrow.  My schedule has changed since i'll be going to school at the end of the month...which, by the way, all my financial aid stuff went through and I have a thousand extra dollars per semester, so that really made me happy.  I bought aleta, tom, my mom, and 2 ladies from work a few things.  tony also got his sisters something since they didn't get to go.  I got solid colored gift bags and glued shells on the front in for everyone's initial.  I took pics of that, too, because it turned out really cute, so I'll post them also.  Aleta really liked her gift.  She's the only one that I got to give it to so far.  Tom was supposed to come get his and give me my storage unit key back, but he blew me off again today for the third time w/ no call.  grrr.  he makes me so mad sometimes.  I want to try to go to my mom's this weekend to give her her stuff.  ummm...i dunno, I guess that pretty much sums it up...I'll probably remember 50 things after I go do something else, but it will have to wait cuz I still have stuff I wanna do.  late.

I dont' really have much to write about....i'm just bored.

i went to the mall today after work.  it took me forever to get there b/c you wouldn't believe how much road construction is around my work.  it is almost impossible to even get from my job to anywhere without hitting any.  I was going to get on the highway to get to the mall, but as I was going up the on ramp, i noticed that traffic was bumper to bumper, completely stopped.  Now, I really only have to go about 3 minutes, if that on the highway, get off at the next exit, and that is tha mall. But I was like screw that, I'll just go around...cuz when you don't take the highway it is like farther out of the way...i dunno, it just takes longer.  Anyways, so I turn around and start going the other way and guess what?  More construction.  This time I just went through it, though, b/c it was just one lane closed.  Not to mention that the road that my work is on has construction on both ends of it, and the way that I used to take to work is closed for construction.  It's a pain.  But, I guess all the roads should be nice when all this shit is done.  I think mostly they are widening all of them...but the work on the highway, I don't know about that.  There is like all kinds of cranes and stuff...I think it might have collapsed, actually.  I thought they fixed it already, but maybe they just are now.  I dunno...I'll ask tony he always knows what the hell is going on.

Other than that fiasco, tho, the mall was fun.  I got 2 cute pairs of shorts from dillards...one is khaki and one is like shorts underneath and then a cute little athletic skirt.  It'll look cute over a bathing suit, I thought.  I got a T-shirt from A&F that says 'You better make more than I can spend'  haha.  Tony is going to hate it, but I think it's cute.  I got a white lace-y, long, bathing suit cover/tube top.  It's one that is kinda ribbed at the top and it has a tie that can go around your neck or just tie in a bow and then the bottom is just kinda flowy with lace detail at the bottom.  That was from aeropostale for only like 10 bucks...I saw shirts kinda like that from kaufmanns for a little cheaper, but the one I got was way cuter.  Some of them look like terry-cloth or something, and I really don't like that.  It makes them look way to cheap or something.  i dunno.  I got 2 shirts from kaufmanns, tho...just like regular t-shirts.  One is a white v-neck and one is white and says 'I can't hear you when I'm not listening', but the lettering on it is like pink and red and just looks cute.  usually i don't buy t-shirts with phrases on them, but those 2 today really fit me well, so I just had to get them.  And I sears I snagged up 3 shirts...a white tank top with gold sequins around the neck and arms, a blue v-neck tshirt with blue sparkly detailing around the neck, and a plain blue v-neck, but it is like tunic length, so that it why I got it because I like long t-shirts.  So, that was my shopping excursion today. 

I want to take tony shopping for some clothes and stuff for vacation, but everytime we go he acts like he doesn't want to shop and like won't tell me what he likes or wants or anything.  I can't buy stuff for him if I don't know what he wants, you know?  I guess I could, but sometimes when I do that, the stuff just sits in his closet and I don't wanna waste my money on something he wont wear.  even tho, i think he does that to me all the time.  there's prolly tons of things in my closet that i've only worn a couple times or never.  oh well, hopefully he'll feel like going one of these days he has off and we'll get him some stuff.

I got a letter from ohio financial aid (I forget if I've wrote about this already), and they are giving me enough to cover about half of my tuition for this semester and next.  But, I still have to wait to hear about how much federal will give me, but I'm sure it will be plenty to cover the rest cuz I'm a broke ho.  haha.

HEY!  Exciting news!  It's about to rain!  Yippee....after like 2 weeks of over 90 degree hot, humid weather, we need some rain!  It's getting all windy and cool and starting to lightning.  Hopefully it will rain all night and not for only like 10 minutes...that is usually what happens.  It rains just enough to make it even hotter out if that is even possible.  Anyways, I think I'm gonna go try to lay down and go to sleep while this little bit of cooler air is visiting....it is always so much easier to go to sleep with a nice breeze rather than sweating like a mother fucker.  yeah

Not really much to write about, but thought I'd just update a little while I'm sitting here waiting for my nails to dry...

Bought some luggage for my vayca.  It is, of course, bright pink.  Awesome.

Tom moved out.  He came and got his stuff yesterday.  I guess he is moving in with one of his friends and their girlfriend.  (Brandon and Michelle).  They have no lease or anything, so I guess it works for them.  Im kinda happy that I have my apartment back, but at the same time, I am kinda lonely and like I don't think this is really the best decision for him b/c he needs help getting his shit together, but he really isn't going to get it there.  Oh well, though, he thinks he is getting life insurance money from my dad, but little does he know that since it is all coming to me, I am going to put his half in the bank or something til he gets a little more mature. He is going to be mad, but oh well. 

I got some paper in the mail about my financial aid, so I'll have to call the school and see what to do, because I have no idea.  It's from the state financial aid...I haven't heard about federal yet b/c they keep sending me more shit to fill out and it is really getting annoying.  But, I am happy that I am getting some from both, so I don't think I'll really have to pay much of anything for tuition. ...yippe!  Cuz I don't have the money to do that.

anyways, that is about all that has been going on...I'll try to post a few more times or at least once before I leave for Florida!  Yay!

my life has been boring lately.  Which is a good thing, but I don't really have anything to write about.  So, I'll tell you about some dumb stuff

I put up a sign in the bathroom that said to clean the tub after you take a shower EVERY time!  Well, my brother did it so I was happy, and I was like, I'm gonna take the sign down now.  So, I take the sign down and the punk stops cleaning the tub after he takes a shower!  WTF?!?  So, yeah, he is not the brightest.  I know I talk alot of shit about my brother on here like that he is dumb and stuff, but really I love him alot.  I wish he would just be more responsible for himself and stuff.  He seriously does need to get his act together, though.  And unfortunately my mom is to much of a drunken fool to do anything about it.  But, I love her, too, so whatever.  I'll just take care of them for the rest of my life and bitch about it in my blog.  haha.   

Man, I keep trying to write this entry and I get distracted by something like every 5 minutes.  It's taken me almost an hour to get to this point here.  crazy.  I'm just trying to do to many things at once.  I think I'll finish this later if I get a chance....sorry.

It's been a relatively boring week.  I feel like I haven't been as hostile lately cuz I haven't been finding as much to bitch about.  That may be a good thing.  Kelly's (John's mom) funeral is tomorrow.  Not really looking forward to that.  Not that anyone would be looking forward to a funeral or anything.  I'm really sick of going to these damn things.  This will be the 3rd since November.  One of my best friends killed himself in Nov, then my dad in April and now Kelly died of a heart attack.  She was only 44.  That is so young.  Especially for a heart attack.  I guess.  I dunno, I guess she was already having problems and had to take pills (that she sometimes didn't take), and she lived a kinda wild lifestyle like she smoked alot and drank every night.  Not that it is so 'crazy' or anything, but I'm sure years of living like that will catch up with you, especially if you already have a weak heart, you know?  I feel so bad for John, though.  He is having to take care of most everything himself and I can just relate so much with what he is going through.  It just sucks.  He is the one that found her...He came home and saw her laying on the floor like she had fallen off the couch or something, so he went over to try to wake her up and she wouldn't and he rolled her over and her lips were all blue and she wasn't breathing, so they called 911 and stuff.  I know that it is really hard for him right now, but it could have been so much worse.  Like, I didn't even get to see my dad or anything before he was cremated...they wouldn't let me cuz he was so messed up.  My brother is the one that found him and he said that I never would have wanted to see that, but I dunno, I might have felt better just to see him even if he was fucked up.  From what they were telling me, he pretty much had no head left.  So, I guess that would have been pretty disturbing, but like I wish I would have gotten to say goodbye.  But, John got to do that before they took her to get cremated...say his goodbyes and whatever else he had to say.  And she did have a will, so he won't have to go through all the attourney shit like I had to.  Hopefully over the next few weeks I'll get a chance to talk to him about it more because I think it would help both of us.  No one else really knows what to do for someone when their parent suddenly dies.  Like, Tony is trying to be around him all the time and ride with him everywhere and shit, and I'm just like, he's probably so sick of people being around all the time and being like 'how are you?' 'Im so sorry'  I mean, the sentiments are appreciated but you really just don't want to hear anyone say it and any 5 minutes that you get alone that no one is at your house or your phone isn't blowing up is very much needed.  It's just a stressful time and people get annoying pretty quickly.  He's having to keep his dad sane...I guess Big John is really torn up.  Not like you wouldn't be if your partner for 23 years just died, but it is crazy that now the son is the one that has to suck it up and do everything kinda like I had to do.  He's very strong, and I know he'll get through it, but it really is just so sad.  So, hopefully after tomorrow I can go at least 6 months without another funeral

Man, everything is messed up.  Tony's best friend John just called and told me that his mom died this morning.  I guess she had some kind of heart failure or something.  It's just crazy.  I didn't know her as well as Tony did, but she was so nice and I really liked her alot.  I know Tony is going to be so upset.  I dunno.  I'm all wierd now cuz like I just got off the phone 5 minutes ago with John, so I don't have much to say about it...kinda numb cuz I just went through all that and it's like...i dunno.  wierd.  I'll probably post more later or something.

We had a really really good time at Cedar Point.  The weather was beautiful, and it wasn't even as busy as we had thought.  We got to ride every rollercoaster at least 2 or 3 times.  And we rode every ride that is in the park.  We didn't have to wait no longer than 1 hour for anything, at that was only like 2 rides that we even had to wait that long.  Most was only like 30 minutes and sometimes we got right on the ride.  Which is really good considering last year when me and tony went with Aleta and Tenae, we had to wait at least 1 hour for all the rides and the popular ones we had to wait like 2 or 3 hours...and it was like 100 degrees last year.  Megan (Tony's cousin) is really nice and sweet and we got along super.  No one was complaining or anything and it was just great.  I'm posting some pics here, but I don't have them all up yet, so check back in a few days to see if I got them yet   Cuz I'm lazy and I need to get some film developed.  The only bad part was on the first day , we ate at some place in the park that had pretty nasty food and then I yacked my guts out all night after we got back to the hotel.  But, I felt better the next day, and we ate something different for dinner that night, so I was okay.  It still sucked to be screaming all day and my throat was all hurting and raw and then I had to puke which made it even worse.  Yuk.  Chris got hit on by a gay guy.  I dunno...we were just chillin in like for a coaster and some guy just comes up to him and was like 'hey, you wanna ride?' and Chris was like 'who, me?' and the guy is all 'yeah, you wanna ride with me?'  Chris was like 'ummm...no!'.  It was funny.  I dunno why that guy even asked him or if he was gay, but that is just what we keep telling Chris...we just are picking on him, but it was still pretty funny.  Anyways, I'm not going to write much because I need to go unpack all my stuff and I wanna go get my pics done.  So, maybe I'll have them all up by 2night.  Late.

ETA: Added the pics that I have.  Megan is getting doubles of the pics from her camera, so I may have most to post on there soon.  I don't know why they came out so little....I'm gonna try to make some bigger ones so you can see better, but that will have to wait cuz i'm sleepy now after all that work!

Yeah it is...and I'm tired as f*ck.  Oh well, I wanted to post real quick before I went to bed to sleep for a whole 2 or 3 hours and then get up and make the 2 hour drive to cedar point to spend about 10 hours on my feet in the heat.  It should be fun, though.  Hopefully I'll have a bunch of pics to post when I get back.


Hmmmm...not really much to write about, though, my brother still hasn't talked to me yet. He's crazy. Whatever...I put a big laminated sign in the shower that says to clean the tub every time after you get done taking a shower. He'll prolly take it down and think he's gonna be cute and make some smart ass sign, that will in reality be stupid. we'll see what happens....He hasn't been home for a weekend for about the past 2 months, but for some reason (hmmm...because we won't be here, maybe??) he's staying here this weekend. There better not be no damn kids here getting drunk and shit. I'll be pissed. I'm going to wake his ass up in the morning and let him know...or something. I dunno.


In other, and much happier, news....me and tony went & registered for our classes, so we'll be starting college in the fall. I'm excited. I've always liked school and now I'm proud of myself that I am giving myself the opportunity, because, well, my parents never really did. My dad and my grandma would both be so proud of me if there were still around.



Anyways, like I said, not much to write about but I wanted to fill ya in on that stuff before I left for the weekend so I wouldn't have a novel of a post on monday.